Rendezvous
14 January 04 : 10.23 PM
I've made changes to previous entries after rereading it and realizing how it actually sounds. Sometimes I rather not let the world know.
I love my sister so much. Reading this entry made me cry. I'm the luckiest girl in the world because I've got such wonderful people around me but I'm still expecting so much.
Andii is lying here sleeping right now and I want to go over to embrace her but I'm afraid she'll wake up.
Sometimes I get so jealous of her because of so many things I don't think I can mention all. She's the kind of person I wanted to be.
She's really one of the smartest people I know, that's why I'm always asking for her opinions and asking her questions because she's probably one of the few people I think makes sense and thinks logically. It's also the way she's like a model, or even better yet, a beauty queen. Beautiful, tall and slender. She's got the smoothest hands I've ever touched, so graceful and dainty that I don't even want to compare with my own. She plays with those fingers lovely songs on the piano that I cannot match. Sometimes I even feel that she's so much better than a lot of pianist out there because her music makes you feel.
It's like I can never compare to her. I can never do anything as well as she does.
5 years ago, that jealousy evolved into envy.
Darling sis, if you're reading this, thank you for everything. I know I'm being a little melodramatic now but who cares. You're the greatest sister there ever was, or ever will be. I love you.