Rendezvous
27 May 05 : 02.53 AM
It's officially the holidays! I need this break. I haven't been sleeping enough the past few weeks. I have been attending school much more regularly and I have been doing some of my tutorials. This is a major improvement from secondary school days and I'm proud of myself!
Okay, firstly, I would have to give Kai a big hug for saturday night and the drinks he paid for, John for his silly dance and Christian for my salmon sashimi. Rebecca was there too that night, I love talking to her! When the guys entered Chinablack, I changed my mind and wanted to meet Christian at Rav but I made him meet me outside Pacific Plaza. In the end, we went back to the hotel room and watched television with Rebecca.
I saw Sylvia. I miss her as a friend. I remember how much we used to talk. I can't recall when did I start treating her differently. All we did was say hi.
I reached home at about 11 the next morning and wanted to sleep because I was dead tired but I ended up taking a long, hot bath because I had to meet my classmates at 2.30. We didn't in the end though.
Anyway, school's been quite okay. I've got nice classmates. I mean, not all of them are (I can't say I am either anyway). It's funny, how I used to tell my civics teacher how wonderful all my classmates are because they're just that damn nice. I still think most of them are great, but there's those few of them that just irritate me. I don't suppose I need to spell out their names because if I didn't like them, they'd know. I'm sure they will. The thing is, I'm not the most sociable of all people, and I hardly really click with anyone.
Oh, and I just lost my handphone two weeks ago. All the messages I'd planned to keep, phone numbers I don't know how I'm going to retrieve again, pictures I took, all those little things. But I didn't feel as upset as I did the first time I lost my 8850 three years ago. It didn't matter that I've spoiled four 8850 handphones, another two different models that I can't think. I'm really not as careless as I sound.
Anyway, yesterday while I was outside Ngee Ann polytechnic, I saw Anne. She's taking Mass Communications. She told me that her course is fun and stuff, and I'm regretting how I didn't go to that school instead. Oh well, too late for all that. Other than the fact that I'm not exactly getting the best grades ever, I think I'm settling in school.
I was with Marilyn this evening. We talked a lot and I spent a lot of time telling her about jc life and Christian. She asks me if I'm emotional. I tell her, "Not as emotional as people think."
Anyway, it's the holidays. I can now resume the only way I work best-- staying up all night and sleep all day. My Queen-sized bed has been empty these days, I'm used to taking up just half of it. My sister stays up all night, in her own room. I can't remember how it feels like to wake up drowsed and walking down the hall to my parents' room to see the television light flickering through the glass. Why doesn't Wilson come into my room at 4 in the morning when he's just got home eager to tell me about his day? I can't read Block or Anais' books anymore. I don't know why these little details affect me.
This is the first time in a long, long while I've wanted to write so much.
Right now, at 2 in the morning, my sister and I are going downstairs to make ourselves something to eat, watch television and fall asleep on the sofa. This feels more like it.