Rendezvous
12 November 08 : 11.22 AM
I find myself wanting to text Dani, or call him, at least twice a day. But I don't.
Things that just end up in my outbox with no one to forward to. I used to send random lyrics to him, to Airell. (For the longest time, Airell's "I've got soul, but I'm not a soldier. I've got soul, but I'm not a soldier." stayed in my inbox.) No one else is used to this apparently. They would think I'm trying to flirt with them.
"I can't tell my MPAJA from my SFSWU. Aren't acronyms supposed to help you remember better? F.U.C.K."
"Laurel took a pair of shoes from out of its box, wore it, and replaced the pair with her own pair."
"Sometimes, God decides that rain will be the best accompaniment to a broken heart. I'm pro-Jesus today. Jesus rocks my socks!!"
Once, Helme asked me if I was still talking to Dani, and I said yes, and his reply was almost accusatory. Learn to deal with shit yourself, he said to me. I hate the tone he uses on me sometimes; patronizing, disdainful.
Dependency has never left a more sour taste in the mouths of everyone involved.