Rendezvous
02 June 09 : 11.50 PM
John Mayer - Heart of Life
Found Othello tonight, flipped through and saw hearts that Rose had indiscriminately drawn some 3 to 4 years back and I thought about my 3 lovegirls.
Where are they?
Girls who never once let me forget I'm beautiful, like Desiree telling me how she thought I was the most beautiful girl in school when I was at my most insecure and I believed that I was worth more than what some guy was seeing. Desiree, the godexquisite wordsmith with porcelain pale skin. Min whose caustic words matched my own but really such a princess inside. Rose who is so beautiful and perfect but somehow never sees it. They spent night after night with me bemoaning Yoong's policies on Stalin's policies, conversations rife with sexual innuendos and Shakespearean and drama quotes used ironically. Falling asleep in empty lecture theatres and eating too much snacks. Nights asleep in my bed or on my sofa, hush hush the walls are thin. Sometimes I forget how much they mean to me. I wish we weren't all so far apart.
Postnote:
I had told her, I almost forgot, but this is what I had told her-
Let's be in love with sugar-coated cereal and dried flowers and vintage cars and rock music for all it represents. Let's be in love with the world instead.
Funny. Because we're all happy now just not in the way I had imagined happiness would be for us.