Rendezvous
26 February 04 : 06.09 PM
I was sitting in Physics class noticing my teacher while he write on the whiteboard. He writes his sentences in the shape of a rainbow, I realised. And he can't spell to save his life. Released, and he spells it as Relised? Relesed? Finally he gave up trying and changed the word to something else, I can't remember, but all I know is that that completely changed the question he was writing.
When he turned back, I pretended to delve in my bag for the worksheets I know I didn't bring. When he asked questions, I took my foolscap out and wrote out song lyrics, so he'll think I'm taking down notes. When he looked my direction, I would look back at him; confident and eager, then he'd look away, scanning the classroom for another clueless kid.
My classmates make fun of him. They hum the theme song of Super Mario, that Nintendo game when he's around. He does resemble Mario, with the same pudgy torso, roundish head and weirdly-grown moustache. I kept thinking that if he clapped his hands one more time, he'll morph into the bigger Mario (Super Mario?). But the only time he did was when Christopher answered a question wrongly. I kept waiting, but he didn't.
For the past few days, the skin around my eyes was swollen and flaky. When I rubbed them, I see dead skin on my fingers. So for several days, I religiously rubbed medicine and moisturiser until now, it's just like baby skin. So right now, my only worry is that it's going to return to that previous state after crying this morning to Ruby while she held my hand. It feels sore now.
I'm wondering if things just change with a snap of the fingers. With a small mistake? Things just change so quickly, a 360 degrees turn, with just one wrong move. Maybe not a mistake on purpose, maybe it was ignorance, whatever, but what a big difference it can make. Be it crying when you don't have to, or not knowing how to spell a word, it makes so much of a difference.
I didn't expect things to change so much, so soon. I've always taken for granted that everything will be fine, and that this is just a passing phase of my life. But it's not okay now, and it's not just a passing phase, and I don't even know what's going to happen next and things have changed. I didn't expected it, but it has.