Rendezvous
05 August 04 : 02.28 AM
I cried a lot this evening, and realized it was uncalled for.
My eyes are dry. It's like it doesn't matter to me now. Maybe it was because it didn't seem like it mattered at all to him.
I couldn't sleep properly last night until I received John's call. I kept waking up to check my handphone, in case I was in too deep a sleep to hear the ring. So you can only imagine how welcomed the loud, piercing sound of the phonecall was.
I'm feeling so angry at him now that I don't want to talk to him. How screwed up is that? When I thought I could well be losing him, I cried so much.