Rendezvous
29 January 05 : 11.57 PM
The cupcake love girls of my life:
Drey - She's so beautiful, it's like she emits this kinda incandescence from within. We've been the best of friends for 6 years and counting. My confidante, my lover, my brother and my stranger. Just two nights ago, we were preteens giggling on the bus, eating way too much chocolates, taking pictures into the night and finally falling asleep on the same bed at four in the morning. She tells me those stuff are the pits, and that they shouldn't be touched. I listen. (Last met her on 27th Jan 05)
Kim - Midnight at Macdonald's, I finally told her the secret I've hid from her for 2 years, and having her tell me something I never knew. It's like she's never going to fall again. She's such a laugh. She's a wonderful friend, though the cousin-in-law bit is a little annoying. But I still love her all the same! (Last met her on 26th Jan 05)
Kimberley - My new found love interest. She's fun and bitchy and not at all pretentious. I got to know her through her boyfriend Les, and we hit off really well, making it a dead point to meet once a week. After her examinations end, we're going on a love-boy hunt or make strangers buy us the drinks we'll never drink on girls' nights out. (Last met her on 22nd Jan 05)
Ruby - I don't know if I'm the one who's changed, or that we've both drifted off different directions because we don't talk as much now. But I'll always remember her holding my hand and telling me to stop crying. How she can tell me all she admires about me, but stays the way she is, so loved and so innocent. (Last met her on 22nd Nov 04)
Nicole - Nicole is so adorable. We laugh all the time with one another, always finding humour in everything we come across. It's just her, really. She's beautiful and sincere and always allowing everyone to fall in love with her for who she is. I tell her everything and don't fear any kind of judgement. She's really that sweet. I'll fall in love with her if I were lesbian. (Last met her on 28th Jan 05)
Marilyn - She's honest, she's shy, she's whacky, she's eccentric, she's perky and fun. I miss skipping school with her, taking random buses to places we've never been and talking about boys and life. Or walking home with her after night has fallen and we're both tired out from all the laughing. She's such a special friend to me. (Last met her on 26th Jan 05)
Felicia - We laugh at the same things. She's really fun to be with. Although I've heard how much she'd changed; the alcohol, the smoking, the clubbing every single night. But best thing about our friendship is that we're almost never serious, only when it comes to our future. I just want to be able to hang out with her like before, sitting by the esplanade, talking and laughing until our sides hurt. (Last met her on 14th Jan 05)
Kerry - The petulant bitch with cynicism to spare. But I love the friendly debates we have and the intellectual conversations we can have (something I don't do with very many people). She's logical, systematic, and so jaded but what's there to life not to be jaded about? She always manages to make me think practically. (Been ages since I last saw her)
Rosanne - Such a supportive friend. I used to have this misconception about her being all bitchy and stuff, but she's really a nice person and so fun to talk to. She's thoughtful and a pretty amazing person to begin with. I was down about some comments made about me today, but she made me feel so much better. She's so loved. (Met up with her this evening.)
Sam? Sylvia? Sandy? Yvonne? Esther Teo? Clare? Rachel? Tin Wai? Fiona? Sze Yen? Nicole Maddox? And all those other girls I used to cherish?
Maybe I'm glad things didn't happen any other way. After what happened last night, these are what was said to me.
Rosanne: "I don't know if it was the right thing to do, telling you that. But I only did so because I didn't agree at all with what was said."
After Rosanne and I parted, I met Mich. She told me, "Don't let something like that bother you, you'll always have me."
Drey: "You're a good person who deserves better. Cheer up!"
That night I called Zac, sounding as though I was going to cry, he spoke to me through even though he was at work. It's like I grew up right in front of him. Just the other day I met him, he told me how I've changed. Throughout the 2 years we've known each other, he's seen me at my best and my worst. He can see me with my tear-stained face and swollen eyes from those nights I cried, and still make me feel like I'm the prettiest girl in the world. It always makes me proud when he tell me I'll always be a firefighter's little girl.
I already have all the reasons in the world to be happy.