Rendezvous
10 October 06 : 10.43 PM
I wanted to call someone just now, but the right person never came. Oh right person, how you elude me. Leaving me breathlessly in tears. But I'm strong anyway, so I don't mind for now.
Theo didn't want to have ice cream with me today. I asked and asked but he kept telling me he wasn't feeling good, not a good day for ice cream. It made me quite sad for a minute. I wanted Theo so bad because he gives me comfort. Comfort. Comfort. Comfort. I don't have comfort now. I'm silly looking today, I told him, and he said, I've seen you when you just wake up, how bad can it get. And I giggle to myself here.
Right person, you never came today. I started talking to people on MSN to stop thinking, I sat at the bottom of the stairs listening to Korean music from the television, I hugged my spunky grandmother who smokes Virginia slim.
I'm falling in love I think I'm in love, and I'm scared. I have never been this hesitant. I don't know why, I don't know why.
(Jonathan calls it my personal firewall.)