Rendezvous
17 November 08 : 02.47 PM
My lecture notes are a joke. It's just picture after pictures of old derelict sites and ambiguous subheadings and sometimes, maps like they were drawn by children. Wikipedia is my only critical source this examinations. I wikipedia everything. I may not be allowed that actually.
Sometimes I feel like I want to leave. The boy said the last time I wanted to leave was 2 years ago, before him. Why do you want to leave? Leaving is good. Leaving is cleansing. Leaving makes you want to stay sometimes.
But I hate this. I hate emotional bullshit rides. I like Vonnegut's works because it has none of those saccharine emotions, unrealistic passionate love or desire or hate. Perfect skin and perfect touches and kisses that don't lead to sex and no flies and perfect tousled out-of-bed hair. When you wake up with bad breath or when your vaginal fluid drips down your legs at the most inopportune times, it's hard to imagine perfection. I wish I were impenetrable.