Rendezvous
24 May 09 : 10.25 PM
He'd called me to tell me something funny, or to hear my voice. I had told him that I was afraid. I can't imagine ever knowing the reasons why but I don't wanna lose it. I kept asking can it change? He says he thinks about it all the time.
I said I'll go over later. We'll wake up early together. I had texted him at some point in the day, "I love you, love." and he replied, "I love you too, beautiful." The other night he'd asked me how someone like me could love someone like him. He kissed me and said, "I love you so much" and my reply was "So much?". We talk a lot when the lights are down. We never hang up the phone with Iloveyous (it feels too trite somehow), but when he was in Cambodia and I had called him, afraid, he said, "We'll talk when I get back. I love you, okay? I love you." I feel like I'm making a huge mistake. I want to say something to someone but there's nothing.
I just keep on forgetting my lines.